We got tested today for the COVID. It wasn’t as invasive as all the horror stories of the dreaded brain scrape. It was quick and the National Guard (overkill for the 2 cars including ours?) were nice. Results in 24-48 hours so the quarantine continues. So does my working from home, which in some ways is worse because now I’m averaging over 10 hours instead of my typical 9. I take the dog for a walk no later than 6:15 (pup needs to learn to sleep in) and by 6:30ish my laptop is open and my hell begins. We’ve been monitoring any symptoms tho is that dry cough another symptom or am I making it worse in my head. M is going down in flames tho I think he’s milking this a tad. Here I am feeling like shit but I’m still cranking away at work and him….well let’s just say the female is in fact the superior sex. Fact. Let’s see how we feel tomorrow…
M’s coworker tested positive along with my coworkers husband this past week. We are pretty sure we have been infected. M and I will get some type of swab shoved up our nose on Monday (albeit against my will) and dear God do NOT let them scrape my brain.
Tensions are getting high and moral is getting low, along with my goldfish supply. I thought it would take longer to feel this way, alas I’ve been horribly mistaken. I took the dog out for some fresh air and exercise. She had other plans, like laying in the remnants of snow and chewing on the small blocks of ice. We’ve been monitoring any symptoms and with every random dry cough or sneeze M and I think it might be our last. Last night I got to deal with a pounding headache (that is a symptom according to the CDC). Not the kind that goes away with my fancy RX for migraines either. I’m used to loss of vision and tingling face then I go lie down in a dark room, take my headache medicine and return to normalcy within the hour. Oh no, of course that didn’t work…the virus seems to be taking our regular aliments and turning them super extreme issues that cannot be so easily tamed. After 4 hours, 2 Benadryl and a prayer later and I was finally asleep. M is just achy. *eyeroll* We both still have our sense of taste and smell after a small false alarm. My wax warmer had been on for some time and with fear in his voice M softly uttered “I can’t even smell that wax anymore…” turns out it just needed to be changed. I picked the strongest peppermint flavor and made SURE we could smell it.
So you’re telling me that I have swiped though alllllllll the men within a 25 mile radious of me?! You have GOT to be kidding. I would demand a refund if I had paid for this app.
Should I expand my search radius? That would probably only be an awful idea. Seeing as IF I did that, I would find the one man who seems worth a minute of my time. We would chat, exchange numbers, and never ever meet up seeing as our schedules would conflict and I’m not a fan of driving.
It’s awfully addicting and I can’t help myself. Should I even admit this? I blame being bored. Yeah, that’s it. Some of these profiles just make me blink and ask myself are these the only men left out there for me? I mean common, being a frat boy was once an attractive trait..no wait, it never was. Seriously? Grow up.
Where are the grown ups with real jobs, no kids and any sort of attraction to me? Well obviously they aren’t on this app.
Please don’t tell me I have to put real clothes on and actually brush my hair. Meeting in real life is so…1999.
No exciting updates or stories as of yet. Crossing my fingers for one to occupy my time soon.
this is the 4th or maybe the 10th time ive said i was going to get healthy. ive been suffering from migraines since my junior year in highschool. thats over a decade. ive been to neurologists, taken food diaries and stress tests and i keep getting the same answer…”we dont know.”
well i think thats a load of crap. ive been trying to figure out what my triggers are, im sure my extremely unhealthy diet has something to do with it. now im not saying if i get into the best shape of my life all of my problems and migraines will go away. however, its gotta help.
the other night i was at home around 8pm and decided to pop my yoga dvd into the bluray. i looked down at my legs and thought “good lord, that cannot be right.” now, i was a former collegiate athlete and even coached swimming for 5 years. i’ve never had a bangin body at least in my eyes, but i did always have killer legs. after a few good poses and my mind at peace, i decided im doing it for real this time.
ive been a very unhappy person lately and i believe my awful diet and lack of any kind of exercise has a good chunk to do with it.
im not promising that im going to post any progress pictures because lets face it, im still way to self conscious for all that nonsense. but i have found writing helps. so not only will i be sweating because im nervous on an awful date but ill also be sweating to kick my own ass.
this is going to be hard. i love a good doughnut and a gallon of icecream….
ive given up on tinder for a while, but i have not given up on swiping. theres somthing about it. its just too easy. damn you technology.
theres a new app which puts girls in control and has been described as the sadie hawkins of online dating. im into that.
the first encounter was around the end of June. a travel nurse. i had no clue what that was but of course he seemed normal. when am i ever going to learn, no one is normal. he had just moved to the durham area and was looking for someone to hangout with. ohh pick me. we hung out a handful of times and made out like we were in 7th grade. (even though i didnt get my first kiss til 16?…).then that was it. i was ghosted. he just fell off the face of the earth. i wasnt sad at all.
the second encounter was with a clinical research associate. he looked hot. i was actually surprised he swiped right on me too. i met him for drinks close to one of my jobs to make it easier on me..duh. the conversation was more dull than unsweetened almond milk in unflavored oatmeal. i bailed fairly quickly and didnt respond to any of his followup texts.
the third was a midget from cleveland. ok not a real midget but when i towered over him in my 3inch heels…he felt like a midget. he obvioulsy had a lot to prove. another me-monster who talked about how great he was at his job. (selling suits at his friends business..eh ok.) he shifted the conversation into how many girls hes hooked up with and how good he is at that. hello no thank you.
i kept my hope alive and continued to swipe. a handful of prospects turned out to be duds. nothing went further than texting. *shrug*
the fourth encounter seemed promising. i really need to stop saying that. he was into cars, guns and outdoors. he also had the prettiest dog ever. so im into dogs and the fact it liked me back was a bonus. things got serious with him fast, at least on his end. asked about knowing if you love someone after 2 weeks. im not one to judge by time but i also still need to know what your favorite color and pizza topping is before i bust out the L word. he got the vibe i wasnt into anything serious. he offered to still be friends. i accepted and so far i have a new friend which is awesome. i call that one a win.
the most recent was probably the biggest disappointment as of late. im not saying that sarcastically. everything was great. clicked instantly and had so much in common. we chatted for a day or two. he had recently come to the east coast from the west and had the same kind of background. we met up for a date at a trendy restaurant that had a bar. he brought me flowers which was sweet but posed an issue once we got into the restaurant. he told me to pick a spot so i made my way to a hightop. apparently he didnt want to do that. he gently pushed me to the lounge area with super low hip couches with even lower tables. where the hell am i supposed to put my flowers? the table was large enough for my cocktail and a fly to sit on the edge. i didnt want to put the flowers on the floor, so i dragged another table over. the couch was large enough for me to sit by myself comfortably with a little extra room. how the hell do they expect two people to sit and enjoy each other? granted how do they expect a full grown woman and extremely large man to sit comfortably? impossible. most awkward eating scenario ive ever been in. theres a reason tables you eat at are a certain height. anyway, i tried to make a spark happen, i really did. but between the “wanting to snuggle on the couch” (look dude, theres barely enough room for us on here…the last thing i want to do is be under your arm with no neck mobility to be able to look at you and continue my story) “the hand holding” (i have the sweatiest of palms especially thanks to this ridiculously hot summer) and “the kiss attempt take one” (i saw that coming and instantly grabbed for my water, thought i was in the clear) and “the kiss attempt take two” (yes, i did put my finger on his lips and asked him if he was really going to try to kiss me on our first date. call me an ass. i dont care) hello awkward moment. sheesh. the date eneded with plans to go to lunch the next day. still trying to pour gasoline on a cigarette cherry, i said yes. the next day i had a killer migraine and had to bail. hes since gotten the feeling that “youre just seem to not be as into me when we first started talking…” i feel like ive been in this situation before…oh yea check post “heidi ho neighbor….” regardless he keeps texting me and as we all know i’m terrible at really telling them i just cant.
maybe he’ll get the point so i dont have to do or say anything. till then i’ll just keep avoiding the entire situation like cleaning my apartment.
im mature. i know.
Happy New Year!!
way to much has happened and ive been a terrible blogger. here is a quick recap of the past 11 months.
ive gotten over my stupid ex finally. his long ass messages to me about how hes”sorry how things ended” and how hes “sad he doesnt have me in his life anymore” have made me laugh. the merry christmas and happy birthday messages went unanswered.
i started a new career in november. that was fun.
the hotel industry is a beast all its own. not having a set schedule has been awesome for my personal and dating life. not getting of work until midnight? im not complaining because i am thankful i have a job. but sometimes…
took a birthday vacation to the west coast. i truly believe that is where i belong. went out to san diego to visit a friend. i had such a blast, we did so much in just a week. went 4wheeling the dunes in yuma, went to the beach and hit up the mountains and went snowboarding. still obsessed.
i have recently found someone who seems to be worth my time…at least for now. thanks tinder. we’ll see how this one crashes and burns.
ive seen a few of these online so i figured id write my own.
i dont want to start off by saying thank you. whats the hell am i going to thank you for? thank you for the tears and empty promises? oh please. id rather start off by saying youre an ass and i hope someone treats you the way you treated me. if im going to be completely honest (isnt that the point of these things?) you broke my heart into pieces not once but twice. there i said it. i stopped being a tough girl for once and wrote how i really feel. i hate that i still think of you on the random occasion. i hate that i lost a best friend. i hate that i put myself out there for you multiple times just to be totally taken advantage of. you wernt terrible. there were times you were nice and kinda funny. i just dont get why you didnt do that all the time? i guess its too much work to be a decent person all of the time.
good bye and dont ever call me again,
-the best thing you ever had
they say at the end of every relationship there is a lesson to be learned. whoever “they” is i think could be right.
ive learned i am important enough to drive 28 minutes to see no matter how tired you are. little things are important to me (and im assuming every other red-blooded woman out there) no matter how much you dont think they do. i would enjoy someone who would spend more time cooking and less time smoking gross cigarettes.
enough of my bitching.
cheers to ex’s and being single.
i cant remember which terrible free site i was on and met the last winner, not like it matters. i dont know if im too nice or just looking for losers in all the wrong places.
he was sweet. i knew it. it went all downhill from there. he was also clean shaven. in theory thats not a bad thing. i also dont have a specific type. maybe thats my problem. i still gave him a chance. i also found out he lived within a stones throw away from me. no joke. i thought it might be super convenient. a possible neighbor romance? ok.
of course i was wrong.
after a few days of texting, i agreed to meet up at the local craft brew bar? conveniently right down the road. i only agreed on that because i did not want to drive downtown. the conversation wasnt terrible. he was actually pretty smart. then i started to glaze over worse than a doughnut. i dont even remember what he was saying. he wasnt funny. all girls like a guy who can make her laugh.
after one beer, 2 book clubs and an awkward kiss at the end of the night he sailed right into the friend zone. we said our awkward goodbyes and that was that. or so i thought.
im a terrible closer. or maybe i just dont like hurting their feelings. the next day he texted me and my responses were short and sweet. then i get this…
“i sense a steep decline in your interest since yesterday. were you weirded out that i kissed you? if im misinterpreting that then great, but i dont want to prolong this if youre not interested.”
i downloaded another “dating” site. well its an app, yeah the swipe left swipe right one. theres almost no detail to the profiles and ive been told its just for hookups. obviously, if i think your picture is attractive i swipe right, and hope you did the same to me, we can chat, you ask for my number then ask me out for a beer and try to get some.
im not into that so this is more of an entertaining aspect of being single. there are a lot of characters on there let me tell you. and there are some ways to guarantee that i will always swipe left or “nope” such as but not limited to…
if you have more than one picture of you doing some sort of mud run. i get it your athletic and like to get dirty..but seriously?
if you only have shirtless and headless pictures. you have kinda a six pack good for you. can i see your face tho? thats a little more important.
if you only have group pictures. i like that you have friends but WHICH ONE ARE YOU?!
if all of your pictures are of you drinking. i enjoy a good beer too, but i also have a life…
if there are pictures of you and a girl. really? shes your sister..sure sure but lets not put those on a dating site.
schmucks. all of em.
ive been pretty busy lately, going on dates? no but reading and dodging complete toolbags. talk about weeding out the bad ones.
i think ive gotten the hang of this online dating thing. just kidding ive only found out that 95% of the douches out there cant read or understand the word no. take for instance one of my fewest suitors, jabba the hut. red flags all over this mug not to mention the fact he openly is “Mainly looking for a BDSM relationship. If you would like to be treated like the Goddess you are would love to chat.” REALLY?! so i guess the part of my profile where i specifically say “dont message me if youre just trying to get some” doesnt apply to him? gross. lay off the creampuffs and stop watching 50 shades.
then there was this guy. when you look like a mix between the main character of renegade (only lacking the delicious six pack and chest) and a washed up wrestler from the 80’s, there is a very specific lady looking for you. i however am not her. also dont just send me a message of a winky face.
should we talk about stretch? yeah this guy…6foot 12foot 9. i can dig it. ive never been out with anyone who i could completely see up there nose. and maybe there is a reason why…
look. im not against giving my number out to anyone who asks for it. maybe thats not a good thing? but it really does get annoying having to keep opening up this stupid website. stretch seemed harmless enough. until the conversation went from “we should meet up” to “you need to come over”. again…excuse me? look here punk, i dont know you from adam, and seeing as im not 100% caught up on my Ninjutsu (yeah its a real thing…wikki it) im not an idiot and going to go to your house. just stop. be smart.
then “mike” started blowing up my phone. and by blowing up i mean it goes a little something like this…
“hey!!!” next day 12:32am
“come over” 11:38pm
another shirtless picture
my response – “do you even own a shirt?”
sometimes my emasculating does the trick. im an ass i know. hopefully it will work on these winners.
time to get my hair done.